It'll be here before I know it!!

Honestly, I get really excited about middle adulthood. I am not trying to rush my children's growth, but I like the ponder about what their futures hold. I will be 44 when my youngest goes to college. I look forward to having a healthy relationship with both of them in their early adulthood years. We are building that relationship now so that the foundation will be there then. It must be a rewarding feeling to see your children succeed in their goals. I hope that they will be more than I could ever imagine them to be.

Another thing that excites me is how young my husband and I will still be young when our children are out of the house. We were married at 21 and had our first child at 23. Throughout the past 9 years we have grown closer and closer. The difficulties we experienced only solidified our relationship. We have struggled financially most of our marriage, that's what I get for marrying a minister! :) Only in the past year or two have we begun to feel that we aren't treading water anymore. It is a nice feeling. I look forward to the years that our relationship is less about making the bills and keeping up with the kids' schedule, and more about each other. I wonder if my husband and I will have less of a struggle in mid-life because we have such a strong, passionate relationship now.

I guess the thing that worries me the most is just the physical piece. I don't care so much about wrinkles and grey hair. That is just inevitable...I have bad genes, as my husband has already pointed out! :) However, I love being physically active. I work out 4-5 days a week and LOVE it. I am already, at 30, experiencing changes in my abilities, aches, pains, etc... I am worried about losing the drive to be active. I wonder if it is a mind over matter thing; like if I refuse to lose it then I still have it?? Reminds me of Cosby in that video we watched.

Since the time we were married my husband and I felt our number one calling is to raise Godly children. We want to leave a legacy for our children. Not like what we experience in our families growing up, but something that makes them proud to tell stories of their parents, and makes them want to instill that spiritual knowledge into their children as well. If we have already begun this thought process concerning generativity now, maybe Erikson's theory of generativity vs. stagnation will not be as much of a struggle for us.

Whatever the pros and cons may be, I better get ready. It'll be here before I know it!